I'm not lazy. I'm efficient.

I may or may not have reached an all time low. 

My roommate walked in on me just stuffing my face with a bell pepper and a cucumber at the same time.... whole.... yup. Not cut up or anything. I looked like a freakin' psycho. BUT in my defense I was just really frustrated with the fact that I had to cut everything up for a salad and then take the time to chew, so logically the easiest thing to do was shove everything in my mouth as fast and efficiently as I could so I could just get eating over with. 

Okay... so I might be having a rough go at life lately. Things get better right? 

P.S. I would share pictures, because of course that hooker took some, but I have deemed them unsuitable for viewing. EVER. Like never ever ever. 

Back by unpopular demand.

My poor little unnoticed blog has been neglected.
I think it's time to start writing again.
Maybe someday I'll write something on here that will help somebody who happens to stumble across it.

So are you ready to hear about my over dramatic and semi-ridiculous life?

Pull up a nice comfy bean bag, because we all know that anyone who has a soul loves bean bags, pop some popcorn and grab a jar of pickles ( don't question the pickles, dangit. They're freaking delicious with popcorn) and we'll get started.

I've been trying to finish hair school for over a year now. I know, pathetic. I mean it's mother freakin' hair school. We'll get into why it's been so hard for me in a later post.

I have a man friend. I think that's what you'd call him. We aren't together. Just best friends... that occasionally kiss and whatnot. That's completely normal........right? Whatever. Don't judge me.

I live in a house with three other girls. Two of which are elusive creatures that I know nothing about and have never talked to. Am I the only that thinks that's not normal? Anyway, I'm just hoping that they aren't murderers or lesbian rapists. We all know that's something to worry about these days.

So there's a cheat sheet version of my life right now. Blessed? I'd say so.

Learning

“After a while you learn the subtle difference between holding a hand and chaining a soul, and you learn that love doesn’t mean leaning and company doesn’t mean security, and you begin to learn that kisses aren’t contracts and presents aren’t promises, and you begin to accept your defeats with your head up and your eyes open, with the grace of an adult, not the grief of a child, and you learn to build all your roads on today because tomorrow’s ground is too uncertain for plans. After a while you learn that even sunshine burns if you get too much. So plant your own garden and decorate your own soul, instead of waiting for someone to bring you flowers. And you learn that you really can endure… that you really are strong, and you really do have worth.” -Veronica A. Shoffstall”

Courage.

This is my problem.
I think so much about every decision and detail that I scare myself with all the "what if" questions. I'm just going to do it I can't let every single worry stop me from doing something with my life.. I don't want to end up looking back and regretting wasting this time I have.

Stop existing. Start living.

Play hard. Work hard. Love a lot. Make up your own mind. Listen to others. Learn from what they say. Do whats best for you. Don't be afraid of taking risks. Be what you want to be. Be thankful for what you have. Give to others. Smile more. LIVE.

Smile!

Today is a day that I just don't understand.. but in a good way.
I'll explain.
I'm addicted to sugar. No really. ADDICTED.
Maybe not hard-core-always-have-candy addicted, but bad enough that when I stop eating it I have SERIOUS withdrawl headaches so I consider myself an addict.
So a couple of days ago I decided to cut sugar out of my diet.
Oh yeah, did I mention carbs too??
I must be crazy.
So Last night I got a massive headache that had me in tears.
I finally fell asleep around 3 in the morning which would have been okay if I didn't have a class at 8 in the morning.
In case you didn't know I'm NOT a morning person.
I also am not a very fun person to be around when I haven't had much sleep.
I set my alarm for 6:45 so that I would have time to get ready and somehow I woke up at 7:50.
I got to class at 8:05. I still haven't had sugar. I'm sleepy.
The amazing part???
I'm in an AMAZING mood! I've been smiling ever since I woke up!
It's positively wonderful and I hope your day is just as good as mine!

TGIF!

That is how I feel today!
Sometimes it feels like life is attacking me and everywhere I go people are trying to wear me down until I crack. I'm not backing down though. We all deserve to be the best we can be. Every mean comment, every set back, every tear that falls shapes who we are and makes us stronger. So i'm going to stand up for myself and be who I can be. I hope you do too.